Even if my heart wanted to chase yours away, I could never.
If I dared to dream beyond these claustrophobic four walls, I would never.
It was just yesterday that you promised to befriend and support me.
Your words fall into pieces reminding me that humanity is shattered.
Here I sit alone thinking thoughts I could never utter.
My mind holds them hostage for a purpose.
They battle with my flesh to break free from the cage that I’ve locked them in.
I will win this war.
Each thought seeks out an escape route - sick – tired – hungry – I will escape.
I resent the confidence that taunts my innermost being. I AM better than that.
I WILL behave better than you.
I am not like you. I never could.
Stepping forward I must lay aside the catty words and awful thoughts you think of me.
You don’t hide it well.
Did I mention I hate all of this? Every last bitter drop.
I could never...
