I Could Never

Even if my heart wanted to chase yours away, I could never.

If I dared to dream beyond these claustrophobic four walls, I would never.

It was just yesterday that you promised to befriend and support me.

Your words fall into pieces reminding me that humanity is shattered.

Here I sit alone thinking thoughts I could never utter.

My mind holds them hostage for a purpose.

They battle with my flesh to break free from the cage that I’ve locked them in.

I will win this war.

Each thought seeks out an escape route - sick – tired – hungry – I will escape.

I resent the confidence that taunts my innermost being. I AM better than that.

I WILL behave better than you.

I am not like you. I never could.

Stepping forward I must lay aside the catty words and awful thoughts you think of me.

You don’t hide it well.

Did I mention I hate all of this? Every last bitter drop.

I could never...